Until We Fly Page 34

My father shoots daggers with his glare, but I ignore it and sip at my water.

I can do this.

Brand is still watching me, still waiting to come to my aid.  But he can’t.  Because this is a family affair.  There’s nothing anyone can do.

“I’d rather discuss it with you,” William says, taking a swig of Scotch.  “You’re more agreeable than your father. But if tomorrow doesn’t work for you, we’ll do it another time.”

I glance into his eyes and his are icy, dangerous.  He’s pretending to be understanding now.  It won’t last.  When I’m alone with him… when I’m alone with him… when I’m alone.

My breath catches and I can’t take another one.

I’m frozen.

My mother comes to my aid.

“Nora, if you’re finished, can you come to my room?  I’m taking a trip to France in a month or so and I’d like for you to look at something.”

Thankfully, I nod.

Yes.

Thank you, God.

William stands when I do, and he presses my hand as I leave, his thumb biting into the pad of my palm.  Hard.  A warning.

Don’t try and run from me.

Gratefully, I trail after my mother down the hall and I feel William staring at me as I leave.  I don’t look back, instead, I numbly stop in the bathroom and scrub my hand where he touched it before I join my mother in her room.

Silently, I pray that Brand will be all right with the piranhas back in the dining room.

My mother brings several items from her closet and searches my face.

“Are you all right?”

I nod.  “Of course, why wouldn’t I be?”
Because she doesn’t know.  Because I’ll never tell her.  It’s too awful.  Too humiliating.  No one can ever know.

“Are you ever going to tell me what happened?  I know something did.”

I paste a smile on.  “Everything is fine.  William is just… William.”

My mother nods, unconvinced.

“He’s difficult,” she agrees.  “He always has been.  He… er, he was slightly in love with me when I was dating your father, back when I first came from France.”

I stare at her in shock.

“Slightly in love?  How can someone be slightly in love?”

My mother smiles tightly. “He was in love with me.  He made some unwanted advances.  I put him off.   I was still in love with your father, you see.”

Her words are so telling.  She was still in love with my father then, unlike now.

“If he ever harms you, you must tell me,” she instructs softly.  “Don’t go to your father.  Come to me.”

Her eyes are steely and determined, an expression I’ve never seen in them before.  I stare into them, mesmerized.

“And what would you do?” I ask softly, before I can help myself.

“I would do what any mother would,” she says firmly.  “I would take care of it.”

Her words send chills through my heart, because her face tells me she means it.  Which further steels my resolve to never tell her.  I can’t have her doing something crazy and getting into trouble because of me.

I shake my head, even though I desperately wish I could spill it all to her.

“No, it’s fine,” I assure her, every word a lie. “He hasn’t hurt me.”

Lies.

My mother walks to her closet and pulls out several new items of clothing.  “I’ll be going to France in a month or so, darling.  Would you like to go?  You can get away from here.  A break.”

She’s hopeful as she waits.  But the only thing I can think of is Brand.  I’ve only got a couple of months with him.  I can’t waste them by going to France, as much as I’d love to get away from here.  Permanently, actually.

I shake my head.

“Any other time and I would, maman,” I tell her.  “But I can’t leave right now.”

She studies my face.  “I see,” she says softly.  “You can’t leave Brand Killien.  I don’t blame you.”

She lays her clothes on the bed and pulls me over to look at them.

“There’s a lot to be said for strength and honor,” she tells me firmly, turning me around to look into my face.  She pushes back a tendril of hair.   “Money isn’t everything.  In fact, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve realized… money isn’t anything.”

I shake my head and point to the pink outfit. “That one.   And what are you talking about?”

She smiles, because she knows full well that I’m following her point.

“If you love someone, don’t let money or lack of money, stand in your way.  Being a good person is far more valuable.”

It is.  I know it is.  And that’s the reason that I can’t truly be with Brand.  He’s far too good for me.

But I smile. “I know, maman.  But why are you telling me these things?  Your life has turned out okay, has it not?”  I decide to go with the pretense that they’ve always kept, and that I’ve pretended to believe for the past decade.

She looks away, and for the first time, she doesn’t smile and gush about my father.  Instead, she simply says, “Things aren’t always what they seem, my sweet.”

Her voice, so sad, startles me.  “Are you ok?” I ask quickly. She smiles.

“Of course.  I will be.” She glances at the clothing again.  “So you think the pink over the coral?”  She changes the subject and I let her.

Because things aren’t always what they seem and she doesn’t want to talk about it.

That’s ok.  She’s got her secrets and her feelings and her sadness, and so do I.

So I certainly understand the need to pretend.

I smile.  “The pink.  It complements your eyes.”

And that is how we behave, almost always.  Forget the issues, focus on the mundane.  It’s how we’ve always survived.

Chapter Sixteen

Brand

Five minutes after Nora leaves with her mother, Maxwell approaches me.

“Come have a scotch,” he instructs me.  It’s not a request.

I decide to humor him.  What he has to say might be interesting.

I limp to the sidebar where he pours me a scotch.  I down it in one gulp, thumping the glass onto the bar, and turning back toward my seat.

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