“Okay.” Lily warmed up then moved over to the weights.

Shade handed her some weights. “From now on, when you feel uncomfortable trying something or you get scared, I want you to say a word that lets me know you’re getting scared and want me to stop.”

“All right. What’s the word?”

“You make one up. That way you’ll remember it better.”

“Blueberries.”

“Blueberries?”

“Yeah, I like blueberries. Even saying it makes me happy.” She smiled at him.

“Christ.” Shade returned to work on his own weights.

“What’s wrong with blueberries?” Lily asked curiously.

“Nothing,” Shade stated, his jaw clenched.

“Then why are you frowning?”

“I don’t know. Most women would pick a color or an object, not a fruit.”

Lily continued lifting her weights. “I can pick a color. I like pink.”

“Lily, blueberries is fine,” he snapped.

“Why are you getting angry?”

“I’m not getting mad, you’re just distracting me.”

“Oh.” Lily lifted the weight again. “I like baby blue.”

Shade stopped and glared at her. “If you don’t quit bugging me, you’re going to be using your safe word in the next sixty seconds.”

Lily shut up.

By the time they finished, she was tired and needed another shower.

“You finish up while I get showered and changed,” Shade told her.

Shade left and Lily did some more stretches, cooling down. It didn’t take Shade long to return, dressed in faded jeans, boots and a black t-shirt. His dark hair was still wet.

“Get showered. I laid out another outfit for you.”

Lily ignored his last words, going to his room. The sooner Beth showed up, the better.

She went into the bedroom, seeing a pale blue dress lying on the bed with her flat shoes beside it.

Lily showered before dressing. She was brushing her hair when Shade came back into the room.

“Dinner’s ready,” Shade said. “Let’s go.”

“We’re going out to eat?” Lily asked hopefully. She could get him to drop her off at her house afterwards, surely he wouldn’t mind leaving her with Beth there.

“No. We’re eating upstairs like everyone else.”

“But I’m not allowed upstairs,” Lily argued, trying to pull away as Shade took her hand, leading her to the steps.

Shade stopped and looked down at her. “If you’re going to get used to living here, that means you get used to going upstairs. You don’t want to stay down here all the time, do you?”

“No, but I don’t want to go up there, either,” Lily insisted.

“Come on.” Lily tried to pull away again, her hand going to the rubber band on her wrist.

“Remember our deal,” Shade warned.

“I already told you, I don’t want to go up there.”

“Lily, the club isn’t going to hide itself from you anymore. That cat’s already out of the bag. At first, you’ll be uncomfortable, but then you’ll become familiar with how things work around here.”

As Shade pulled her up the steps, Lily was afraid to attempt to yank herself away, not wanting to fall. Coming to the head of the stairs, he opened the door to the kitchen, which was full of The Last Rider members. Lily tried to hold back, yet Shade pushed her forward into the big room.

Evie, Jewell and Raci watched in amusement as Lily was then tugged forward to get in the food line.

“Hello,” Lily greeted them.

“Hi,” they greeted her in return.

Shade pushed her forward when the line moved and she stayed still. Lily gave him a frustrated look.

“I’m hungry. Unlike you, I haven’t eaten.”

“I’m sorry,” Lily said, stricken with guilt that she was being difficult while he just wanted to eat.

“I was joking, Lily. You take everything literally.”

Lily lowered her head, her feelings hurt.

Shade’s hand wrapped around the back of her neck, using his thumb to raise her head to meet his eyes. “You look very pretty in that shade of blue.”

“Are you trying to patronize me?”

“A little,” he admitted.

Lily laughed, shaking her head at him.

Taking a plate, she grabbed a few things that she thought looked good despite not having much of an appetite. Shade, on the other hand, filled his plate with much larger servings. Then they sat down at a table with Evie, Rider, Train and Bliss.

Lily kept her eyes on her plate, not able to meet Rider and Train’s amused gazes.

“Have you given Killyama her ride yet?” Lily asked Rider when she couldn’t take it anymore.

Rider’s amused expression disappeared. “Not yet. I’ve been busy.”

“Pussy,” Train goaded.

Rider’s hand clenched on his fork. “That woman probably expects me to ride bitch,” Rider made excuses for himself.

“If the panties fit, wear them,” Train said, dodging the fork that Rider threw across the table.

“I like Killyama,” Lily said, cutting into her pork roast. Silence was her only response. “She saved my life, and I heard Star’s mother had to have plastic surgery after she got in a fight with her. I can see where she might be too much for you,” Lily said, thinking the laid-back man wouldn’t have anything in common with the more serious Killyama.

Everyone at the table burst into laughter.

Rider turned to Shade. “Set it up,” he ordered, all humor gone.

“Will do,” Shade replied, keeping a straight face.

“Make sure you take protection,” Train goaded.

“Which one are you talking about? Condoms or my gun?” Rider asked.

“Both,” Train said truthfully.

Lily threw Train a reproving look. “I think you should volunteer to give Crazy Bitch a ride, Train. I think you two would have a lot in common.”

Evie put her hand on her mouth while Bliss, sitting next to her, asked, “Is she serious?”

“I think so,” Evie said, getting to her feet before she broke down into laughter, taking the dirty dishes with her.

Lily got up, taking hers, and Shade followed her into the kitchen. She started to do the dishes, but Shade took her hand.

“It’s Raci and Train’s week. We take turns.” Lily followed him nervously into the other room where everyone was sitting around, talking.

“I thought Beth would have been here by now,” Lily stated, noticing Train and Cash were pouring drinks at the bar.

“Beth won’t be here tonight. Mrs. Langley had surgery to remove her gall bladder and she’s staying with her at the hospital,” Evie said, taking a seat across from her.

Lily looked at Shade sharply before her eyes went back to the bar where several members were going back and forth, taking beers.

“But I need to talk to her.”

“I’m sure you do, but it’s not going to make a difference.” Shade replied.

Lily’s hand went to her wrist as Viper and Winter came in through the front door. A breath of relief left Lily. Winter would drive her back to college or drop her off at her house.