Lead Me Not Page 23
The moment would have been uncomfortably cheesy except for the heat in her. I made her hot, I could tell. Yet she hated that I turned her on. She didn’t know me. I was a stranger. I knocked her off-balance. But she felt desire nonetheless.
It was a heady sort of power.
“Give me my goddamned drink,” she enunciated slowly and angrily.
I leaned over the bar and dropped the full bottle of beer into the trash can. “You’re not drinking that,” I told her shortly.
She was furious. I grinned in the face of her anger, soaking it in. My veins hummed, and my head felt full. My eyes were heavy, and my feet felt weighted down as if by cement, but nothing could make me leave her.
Not yet.
“Why did you do that?” she asked, and I could see her jaw tightening as she became angrier. I wanted her pissed. I wanted her barely able to hold it together. Because I could tell she wanted that.
She wanted to lose control.
And I felt it was my mission to give that to her.
I leaned in, purposefully close, invading her personal space. It was violating and encroaching, but I wanted to see how far I could push it. I dropped my hand to her waist, to the bare skin below the hem of her shirt. I pressed my fingers into the skin, flattening my palms in order to feel the warmth.
“Don’t ever take your eyes off your drink in here,” I whispered low in her ear. Her eyes, those incredible deep brown eyes, widened.
She looked up at me, trying to see my face. I ducked my head down, hiding from her penetrating gaze. I knew the lighting would make it difficult for her to see me under the bill of my cap, but I needed to be careful.
I reached up so that my fingers grasped her chin and turned her to face the other side of the bar. “You see that guy over there with his septum pierced and the bad dye job?” I asked, indicating the guy who had slipped her a roofie not ten minutes ago. He was watching us closely, scowling, clearly not appreciating the way I had ruined his plans for the evening.
“Y . . . yeah,” she stammered, and I could feel her heartbeat under my thumb. She was nervous, and probably pretty freaked out.
Good.
“He put something in your drink. And then he would have waited,” I whispered in her ear. I saw her throat move as she swallowed.
“He would have waited until you went to the bathroom, or gone outside to get some air, and then he would have followed you. You would have been too spaced out from the drug to put up a fight when he dragged you off behind the building,” I said. She looked truly scared, and I felt sort of bad. But a girl like this didn’t understand the dangers that lurked for her in the shadows.
“And you would have been unconscious while he did whatever he wanted to you,” I finished, dropping my hand from her waist and moving away. I adjusted my cap and finished the rest of my drink before pushing the glass toward Eric.
“Guys like that wait all night for an easy mark like you. So if you plan on being here, smarten up. Because there are plenty of predators out there,” I told her, suddenly angry. I wasn’t sure why I was so mad. But all thoughts of possession, of desire, had been erased by an unfamiliar sense of protectiveness.
The girl frowned and looked at me as closely as she was able to in the dim light. “I remember you. You were the one who helped me find my friend last time.” Then she stepped into my personal space. She violated and encroached. And I was the one who took the step back.
“What’s your name?” she asked softly, reaching up for my cap, as though she wanted to remove it.
I grabbed her wrist and pulled it away, holding it down at her side. “You should go home. I told you last time: You don’t belong in a place like this. I think this just proves it. The mouse doesn’t survive long in a room full of cats,” I said.
I was starting to feel jittery. I needed another fix, and soon. The drugs had started to work their way out of my system, and I felt my organs screaming to hold it in. My blood and bones were hysterical over the loss.
I was thinking too clearly, and my eyes were too focused. But she made me want to see straight.
I didn’t understand why. I didn’t like the effect she had.
It made me angry.
My night had been consumed by this girl, and there were other things I was supposed to be doing.
She opened her mouth to speak, and I thought about thrusting my tongue between her red lips.
Tasting and conquering.
Making her mouth mine.
But her words and my desires were cut short.
“There was a long-ass line at the bathroom. Sorry that took so long.” Her friend returned, and she was momentarily distracted by his appearance. I used that as my chance to disappear into the crowd.
I left her.
I tried to forget.
I tried to resume my night as it had been before I had seen her.
But there was no forgetting. Some people can burrow their way into your head without you realizing it is even happening.
And later on, as I beat the shit out of the guy who had slipped her the drugs, I knew she had burrowed deep.
I just hadn’t decided what I would do if she stayed there.
Chapter eight
aubrey
“you wanna head over to the commons and grab some dinner?” Renee asked, walking into my bedroom.
I looked up from my homework in surprise. Was she talking to me? Was this an actual invite to hang out?
Last weekend at Compulsion had been . . . well . . . interesting.
It was hard for me to decide whether I had truly enjoyed myself or not. The entire experience had been completely surreal.