valerie’s eyes widened as mason wrapped his arms around her and drew her against him. The heat from his body soaked into her. Disoriented, she missed a step, while he stayed steady.

What the hell? She’d thrown that out as a challenge, knowing he wouldn’t take her up on it. Mason didn’t dance. Not once during all the years she’d known him had he ever danced with her, including their wedding day.

But as he held firm to the small of her back, he was relaxed and moved against her with an easy rhythm.

She cocked a brow. “You son of a bitch. You can dance.”

“Never said I couldn’t. Just don’t like to.”

“So what the hell are you doing dancing with me now?”

He gazed down at her and smiled. “I feel kind of bad that no one else will.”

She tried to pull away from him, away from the butterflies flitting in her stomach. She wasn’t used to being this close to him. It threw her off balance and she didn’t like it one bit. Distance gave her clarity, but Mason didn’t let go. “I don’t need a pity dance.”

He laughed. “You think I pity you?” He laughed, then shocked the hell out of her when he bent her over, dipped her and planted his lips on hers.

Her entire body combusted into flames as Mason slid his lips over hers right there in front of God and her sisters and practically the entire town. Their past, all the arguments and hurts, disappeared, and she was once again the sixteen-year-old girl madly in love with the hot cowboy. She was the eighteen-year-old girl who wanted to marry the man of her dreams. She was in her bedroom, getting na**d with Mason, his mouth and hands all over her body, awakening her desires, taking her to screaming heights she’d never known before, or since.

When he lifted her upright again, she was panting, her ni**les tight points of need throbbing against her bra. Her panties, moist with desire, clung to her skin.

But most of all, she was confused.

“Why don’t you hate me?” she asked.

“I don’t hate you, darlin’. I don’t feel anything at all for you.”

That was a downright lie, because as he continued to lead her around the dance floor, the hard ridge of his c**k rode against her hip. She glanced down between them, then back up at him with a smile. “I beg to differ.”

“You make me hard. Doesn’t mean I still love you. Or even that I want you.”

She laughed. “That makes no damn sense. Of course you still want me.”

“First you don’t want to have anything to do with me. Now you’re trying to get me to admit that I want you? What do you want, Val?”

At the moment, she had no idea. As always, being with Mason confused her, made her feel things she didn’t want to feel—things she shouldn’t feel.

The song ended, and Mason took a step back, tipped his hat. “Thanks for the dance.”

He headed back to his friends and grabbed his beer, took a long swill and didn’t even bother looking back at her. He’d just left her standing there like she’d been dumped.

Asshole.

She went back to the table where both her sisters smirked at her.

“Guess he was the one who walked away this time,” Jolene said, looking way too amused.

“Bite me.” Valerie grabbed the shot in front of her and downed it in one swallow, then chugged her beer. Dancing with Mason had gotten her hot in more ways than one.

“You should just jump him and get it over with.”

Valerie’s gaze shot to Jolene. “That would be the worst thing in the world. I’ve been gone two years. Things between us are finally settled.”

Brea snorted. “Yeah, things looked real settled between you.”

“Uh huh. You totally behaved like a divorced couple out there on the dance floor,” Jolene added.

“It was one dance. It didn’t mean anything.”

“You kissed him,” Jolene said.

“I did not. He kissed me. It didn’t mean anything. It was just for fun.”

“Are you trying to convince us, or yourself?” Brea asked. “Because it looked meaningful as hell from where I’m sitting.”

Her sisters could be so irritating at times. “Look. Nothing’s going to happen between us. I don’t want to give Mason false encouragement, or let him believe there could ever be anything resurrected between us. It wouldn’t be right. It would hurt him, and I’ve hurt him enough.”

“Right, because he’s just pining away without you. One word from you and he might just curl up and die.” Jolene motioned with her head toward the other side of the bar.

Valerie followed Jolene’s head motion. Mason had his arm around a gorgeous blonde dressed in skintight skinny jeans that showed off one fine ass, and a body-forming, belly-hugging top that surrounded enormous tits. They were laughing, their heads bowed together. The scene was obviously intimate. The woman had her arm around Mason and rubbed his back in a very familiar way.

Maybe the hard-on he’d sprouted on the dance floor was for the blonde with big boobs, and not for her at all.

Goddammit. She would not be jealous. She’d expected Mason to move on with his life, and he obviously had. Good for him.

At least that’s what she was supposed to think. But her stomach churned and her hands formed into fists. She wanted to march over there and rip that blonde away from Mason. She wanted to scream that he was hers and no other woman was allowed to touch him. Ever.

What the hell was wrong with her? Isn’t this exactly what she wanted? Mason with another woman represented freedom—closure to that chapter in her life. Did she expect him to hide out on the ranch and pine away for her forever? How stupid could she be?

Yet she couldn’t get past the blonde’s hands all over her man—correction—all over Mason.

She had to stop looking. It wasn’t her business what he did or with whom. It shouldn’t hurt.

But it did. She hated that it did.

“Who the hell is that woman?” she asked.

“Candy? She’s some bar slut who’s been trying to get her hands in Mason’s pants for a year or so,” Jolene offered.

“And? Has she succeeded?”

Jolene snorted. “Mason isn’t interested in her. Doesn’t stop Candy from trying every time he steps foot inside Dirk’s.”

He didn’t look like he was trying all that hard to extricate himself from Candy’s clutches. “I need another drink.”

“Don’t you think you’ve had enough?” Brea asked.

Valerie gathered up a few of the empties. “Oh, honey, I haven’t had nearly enough. I’m just getting started.”

mason’s ex-wife was rip-roaring, on-her-ass drunk as a skunk, which was pretty damned amusing since she usually didn’t drink much at all. She was clinging to the bar stool, one arm hung over the back, her ass cheeks barely registering on the seat. Her heels dug into the floor as if they were the only thing keeping her from slithering to the ground and passing the hell out.

He gave her about five more minutes and she’d be on the ground facedown in the discarded peanut shells.

Brea and Jolene were trying to pull her upright onto the seat. No luck, there, especially since Valerie was belligerent and uncooperative, swatting them away like annoying flies in hot August.

“I fine. I kin get home jus fine wishout y’all pishing me off.”

He snickered at the slurring. The bar had closed about ten minutes ago, was practically empty. Sandy, who was wiping down the counter, caught his eye and shook her head. He smiled at her and headed toward the McMasters sisters.

“Mason, help. She’s a giant pain in the ass,” Jolene said, holding Valerie up by the back of her shirt.

“I’ll get her home. You two go on.”

“Bless you,” Brea said, extricating herself from under her sister’s arm.

Valerie pushed at Brea. “See, told ya I could drive.”

Jolene shook her head. “Girl never had any sense about drinking.” She patted Mason on the arm as she walked past. “Hope she doesn’t puke in your truck.”

Great. He scooped Valerie up into his arms and her head fell against his chest. She tilted her head back and opened two bloodshot eyes to stare up at him.

“Why aren’t you with your girlfriend? Jush leave me here and I’ll drive myshelf.”

He didn’t answer, just nodded to Sandy and pushed open the front door. The night was cool. Maybe it would help clear Valerie’s head.

“Oh my God, who put me on a roller coaster?” she whined as he walked to his truck.

“You did.” He stopped and leaned her against the side of the truck long enough to dig for his keys.

She slumped against him. “I don’t feel so hot.”

“Imagine that.”

He picked her up again and put her on the passenger side, clicked her seat belt into place, then got in and started up the truck, making sure he drove slow and straight, though the mean streak in him wanted to hit every goddamn bump in the road. But he didn’t. Not that it mattered, since even in the dark he saw her face grow pale.

“I really don’t feel good, Mason.”

He punched the button and rolled her window partway down.

“Suck in some fresh air.”

She did, inhaling and exhaling. And grew white as a sheet.

“Pull over.”

He turned down a gravel side road, threw it into park, raced around to her side and jerked her out of the car just in time. She dropped to her knees and he held her hair while she vomited up the contents of her wild party tonight. When it seemed like there was nothing left to give up, he grabbed a bottled water he had stashed in the side pocket of the truck and washed her face, then told her to take a sip. He put her back in the truck and drove back to the ranch, then carried her inside and up to her room.

She was quiet now. Her eyes were closed, and she was limp as a dishrag and soaked through with sweat.

He laid her on the bed, her hair a tangled mess around her face.

She looked like shit.

He walked out into the hallway. Brea’s and Jolene’s rooms were both dark. As a matter of fact, Jolene’s truck hadn’t been out front. Maybe they’d stopped at the all-night diner in town for breakfast. He supposed he could wake Lila . . .

Well, hell. It wasn’t like Valerie had anything he hadn’t seen before. He went back into her room, watched her chest rise and fall with deep, even breaths. He pulled off her boots and socks, then undid her belt buckle and unfastened her jeans. He pulled down the zipper and tugged the jeans over her h*ps and down her thighs, revealing purple silk panties, tiny strings holding them up on her hips.

Christ. His c**k twitched to life as he drew the jeans down her legs, his knuckles brushing the softness of her skin. He felt like a pervert undressing an unconscious woman. A woman whose body he knew all too well.

Sucking in a breath, he took the hem of her shirt and pulled it up, baring her flat stomach, her ribs, and over her breasts. Her purple bra matched her panties. She sighed, inhaled deeply, her br**sts rising with that breath.

He was fully hard now, mentally cursing this really stupid idea. He lifted the shirt over her head and threw it on the floor, then slid his hands under her back and undid the hooks of her bra in about two seconds flat. Hell, he’d always been good at undressing her, especially when they’d been frantic about getting na**d and getting skin-to-skin with each other.

Thoughts like that weren’t going to settle his dick down soon. He pulled her bra off, stood there looking at her dusky pink ni**les that hardened to tight points in the cool bedroom, and wished he were anywhere but here. He was no freakin’ Boy Scout. He was hard as a fence post and his balls were throbbing. This was the woman he’d spent half his life thinking about sinking his c**k into. And here she was, lying in the bed they used to make love in together, nearly na**d, her legs softly parted, her ni**les hard, just like his dick.

Shit.

“Come on, darlin’, let’s get you under the covers.” He scooped her up long enough to jerk the covers down. She moaned, softly, while he repositioned her, pulled the covers over her. Then she rolled to her side and shoved her nose in the pillow.

He turned off the light and pulled the door handle.

“Thank you, Mason,” she mumbled from under the covers.

He closed the door and tiptoed downstairs and out the front door, slamming into his truck and peeling off down the road. He rolled the window down, hoping the cold breeze would chill the heat roaring through his body.

He still wanted her. Even worse, he was leveled by how much he still cared for her, still wanted to care for her. She was still as vulnerable now as she was when her life had been shattered all those years ago after the death of her parents. He’d always thought she’d leaned on him then because of that. Maybe she had. And maybe it had been something more than that. Something that couldn’t separate them no matter what.

She’d walked out on him, had made it clear she wanted no part of his way of life. And yet he knew that they were still bonded. He felt it. So did she, even if she tried to deny it.

Maybe they always would be.

And maybe he was just a damn fool.

six

there wasn’t enough coffee and acetaminophen on earth to obliterate the hangover Valerie had woken up with. But after a shower, nearly half a pot of coffee and some of Lila’s heavy-on-the-carbs breakfast, she decided she might live through the day.

What an epic idiot she was. Thinking she could down all those beers and shots of whiskey when she normally didn’t even drink was a lesson in stupidity. Even worse, she hadn’t been nearly drunk enough to forget Mason driving her home, or her throwing up on the side of the road, or Mason putting her to bed.