Crimson Death Page 45

   “I don’t remember that part, Nathaniel.”

   “You don’t remember Damian fucking you?”

   “No, I don’t.”

   “Or me going down on him for the first time?”

   “No.”

   “Or him taking blood from me so we could all keep having sex?” Nathaniel moved his tangled hair to one side so I could see the fang marks in his neck.

   “I don’t remember that.”

   “What’s the last thing you do remember?”

   “I told you, your eyes glowing, and Damian’s eyes glowing.”

   “Your eyes glowed, too, Anita, like brown diamonds in the sun.”

   “I’ll take your word for it, but I don’t remember it.”

   “You should remember, Anita.”

   “I don’t.”

   “Why don’t you?”

   “I don’t know.”

   He glanced behind him at the other man lifeless in the bed. “I hope Damian remembers more of it than you do. We hit some serious firsts. It would be sad if I was the only one that remembered them.”

   “We need to talk to Jean-Claude,” I said.

   “Why?”

   “Because I don’t remember anything, Nathaniel. I mean, nothing after your eyes started to glow.”

   “Everyone’s eyes glowed, Anita, not just mine.”

   “I’ll take your word for it, but I honestly don’t remember.”

   He slipped off the bed and I took a step back. He went very still, his face very serious. “You’re not just afraid. You’re afraid of me.”

   “I think so.”

   “Why? I would never hurt you, Anita.”

   “Logically I know that, but this isn’t about logic.”

   “No, it’s all about emotion for you. I can smell it.”

   “Smell what, my emotions?”

   “Your fear,” he said, his voice calm as if he didn’t want to add any more emotion to the situation. It was usually the way that Micah talked to me when I was upset, but I guess we’d been dating enough so that we all knew how to handle each other now.

   “Anita, I don’t know what happened, or why you can’t remember everything, but if we did get rolled by some bigger vampire, don’t do to me what you’ve done to Sin, or Jean-Claude and Richard in the past.”

   “And what is that? What did I do to them?” I could hear the fear and edge of anger in my voice.

   “Let your fear of what happened paint everyone involved with the same issues. It would break my heart if you treated me that way.”

   I stared into that handsome face and didn’t know what to say.

   “I don’t think I’d deal as well with it as they do.”

   “What does that mean?” And my voice was still strident with the first stirrings of anger, because it would help chase away the fear.

   “It means don’t blame me, or Damian, when we got rolled, too.”

   “But you remember. If you’d been rolled, you wouldn’t remember.”

   “I don’t know why I remember, but you and Damian said yes to everything we did. I hate the idea that you don’t remember saying yes, and hope like hell that Damian remembers later.”

   I glanced at the vampire lying broken-looking in the bed. “Can you change his position? He looks . . . broken.”

   “Can it really hurt him to lie like that?” he asked.

   “No, but it just looks uncomfortable.”

   Nathaniel didn’t argue, just climbed back onto the bed and moved the vampire until he was lying in a more normal sleeping position. His body moved as only the dead can, boneless and hard to keep where you put it, so that the head kept lolling to one side at that broken-neck angle. Nathaniel finally had to use the pillows to prop the vampire’s head at an angle that made me happier.

   “Let’s go find Jean-Claude; he should be awake by now,” I said.

   “You’ll want to at least finger-comb your hair,” he said, smiling.

   I frowned at him. “Do you really think I care how my hair looks right now?”

   “No, but you might if you look in the mirror.”

   I half-smiled and shook my head. “For you to keep insisting, it must be bad.”

   “Pretty bad. I think we all forgot to put hair-care products and conditioner on after we finished the shower part.”

   “You never forget hair-care products,” I said.

   He frowned. “True.”

   “Are you sure you remember everything that happened?” I asked.

   “I thought I did, but now I’m not sure.”

   I reached up and touched my hair, but just feeling it didn’t seem so bad. I started to walk to the bathroom, but Nathaniel followed me, and I had to stop him. “I don’t want to be in the bathroom with anyone but me right now, Nathaniel.”

   He looked so sad.

   “I’m sorry, Nathaniel, but until we figure out what just happened I need a little space.”

   “Don’t pull away, Anita.”

   “I want some privacy in the bathroom. I don’t think that’s asking too much,” I said.

   He nodded and let me walk away alone, but his shoulders slumped forward, every line of him sadder than a few seconds ago. I wanted to run and hug him close, erase all the sadness from him, but I had a right to go to the bathroom alone, damn it. I had a right to a little privacy, a little space, even with him.

   I closed the door, but standing there in the room where I’d lost time wasn’t good. I suddenly wanted out of the room as much as I’d wanted out of the bed. I opened the door and came to stand outside, breathing hard.

   “Anita, are you okay? Did something happen in the room just now?”

   I shook my head. “Going to leave the door open, okay?”

   “Okay, I won’t try to come in while you’re in there.”

   “Thank you,” I said.

   “I don’t know what’s wrong, but I don’t want to make it worse,” he said.

   “I know you don’t.” I moved back into the bathroom to look in the mirror and instantly understood why Nathaniel had said something. My curls didn’t always look great after I slept on them wet, but this was spectacularly bad, even for me. It looked like I had lopsided horns, along with other odd protuberances in between. Just sleeping on my hair wet wouldn’t do this; it was like we’d put in shampoo and just left it in, or gotten crazed with hair-care products but never smoothed the hair into place. Once I saw my hair, I knew that Nathaniel didn’t remember everything either. He’d never have let me sleep with this much stuff in my hair without helping me neaten it. Nathaniel thought he remembered the entire thing, but he didn’t.

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